When I was sitting in mass I realized how quickly I lose attention. I was trying to focus on the homily but there was just something in the room bothering me. I quickly realized that it was the beaming light bearing it’s feins right onto my head. I couldn’t take that light. I was mainly wondering why it was on in the first place. I must’ve stared at it for thirty seconds, wondering why it was there. The worst part was I couldn’t even ask. I thought maybe it was to prevent us from sleeping. But if that were the case, why were we using these chairs? They already prevented that enough. Father’s words were getting through to me, but at the same time this giant issue was preventing all meaning from sticking to me. I then wondered, why it was bothering me in the first place. It felt like some unseen form of pressure. Like all eyes were on me. I didn’t like that. I wanted to be alone to my thoughts, and to think about the words being spoken. I wanted to process. Mass is easier when I can think. I can make connections to my own life and what’s being said. When I can’t think, I just feel silly. Empty and hollow. I suppose my mass experience was pretty weird, but this is how I felt.
News around STM regarding sports seems to be pretty big. I hear there's going to be a track meet tonight and my brother is running in the 4 by 200 relay. The confusing portion about this is that he hasn't run track since the 8th grade. I sort of got an urge to go and run myself, but I think I'll pass. I'm excited for him and hope he does well. Another student is going pretty far in wrestling. His name is Brody. That's about it for sports.
In terms of work, I haven't had that much. Just mainly making up for last week. I missed a lot of quizzes and have been making them up here and there. It's rumored tomorrow might be a snow day. I really hope it is. There aren't any projects due for me this week, but I do have a theology test tomorrow. It might get pushed back. Here's to hoping.
I really enjoy playing video games. They're pretty fun and a great way to lose track of time. Some people say they can be addicting but honestly I've never found that to be a problem. It's all about self control. There's been a real lack of good video games in the market lately. Today Elden Ring comes out though and it's received some of the most favorable reviews I've heard in a long time. Especially after a bad game like Battlefield 2042 absolutely ruined games. I'm tired of developers getting away with publishing terrible quality games because they know they can. It's time we, the audience, goes on strike and shows it to the companies.
Some of my favorite games are survival games. Although I feel like this genre of games is incredibly broad. I really like zombie survival because it gets my adrenaline running. I also like games that are permanent loss if you lose. Difficulty is a thing more games should strive to include.
I start off the new month with a pretty exciting first day. Well, not for me. It's my sister's birthday today actually. Other than that I'm not really excited for anything else this month. I suppose being one month closer to high school is exciting. It raises my anxiety though. It's just scary to think about going to college but at the same time I know it will be very alleviating. I'm really looking forward to the future.
The weather has been getting much better lately. The snow is almost all gone and I don't think there's any in the forecast for a while. Really nice to see but I'll miss those snow days. It's a bit windy and a little mucky from all the melting. I think there's supposed to be rain this week. The sun is nice to see and it's overall a great time outside. Not yet swimming weather but maybe in a month.
For lent I used to always give up candy. However as I got older I tried more to work on changing myself as a person during the time. I still give something up, but I add this in addition. In the past it's always been about my attitude, but I think this time I want to work on my body. I want to get stronger and fitter. I'm gonna work on lifting and go for runs. I do this to help myself rebound into the time period after lent and just give myself a better outlook and attitude.
These are some games I like.
Over Spring Break I went to Colorado. I had never been West before so I was excited to go for the first time. We were visiting a small little mining town called Breckenridge to go skiing. I had been skiing before, but never on this scale. It was crazy to go from 600 feet up in Illinois to about 10,000 feet above sea level from where I slept. The air was so nice up there and the village was extremely pretty. It was pretty expensive though!
Up on the mountain was breathtaking. I was 12,000 feet high and could see for miles. The town was circled on all sides by mountains and the ski slope took about 40 minutes to get up and down. It was amazing. The snow was fresh and it snowed about every day. The craziest thing was how it wasn't even cold. It was hoodie weather at most. There was almost no wind, and the sky was never cloudly. The nights there were extremely dark. Absolutely breathtaking and definetely a sight that will stay with me for the rest of my life.
Memories or plans for Holy Week. I think for Holy Week I'll end up doing what I usually do. Part of my family is Lutheran part of my family is Catholic but we manage to have a great Easter together nonetheless. It's one of my favorite holidays because it brings us together and Easter is just an amazing holiday. I haven't really participated in the past years, but the Easter Egg Hunt we do is amazing, mainly because my Nana is in charge. She hides them all over our house and the little kids go crazy looking for them. Me personally, I take my time and go for the ones I know are hidden in spots they can't reach. Easter mass is nice too, it's no Christmas mass but it still is a great time and environment. I really love the songs at mass and I think the Easter environment has some of the best songs to sing to.
I think I pronounce milk normally. Just milk? I know some east coasters say "Can I get some malk?" That's a little silly. Maybe in the south they say "mulk." To me milk is just milk and I pronounce it how I pronounce it. I guess if I had to say a way I said it I'd just say it like any other Midwesterner. Maybe the British say something weird but us Americans probably pronounce it the correct way.
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